I came out to meditate and reflect on the transition I am making right now. The last couple of weeks have been one of the most transformative moments of my life. When it comes to a position of financial stability, I had that, but what I was doing was unfulfilling. So, I am starting all over, and jumping into an industry I am unfamiliar with, leaving everything I once thought I wanted, and it is all quite unsettling.
Understandably, I have been feeling heavy in my heart and head, not exactly expressed by anything specifically, but just a conflict of sorts. At the same time, I am calm and at peace with my decisions, It’s an interesting blend of energy.
Humans have emotions and these emotions are powerful. They can prevent us from living out our dreams. And the strongest emotion is that of FEAR. There is truly only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: The fear of failure. But going out and meditating by the river today I watched the river and I learned something.
A river is forever ongoing, its nature is to run continuously, and without ceasing. The river might face disturbances in the form of rocks, boulders, or the edges of the land that serve as guides to keep the river on its path. When the river confronts those barriers, it becomes tumultuous and unsettled. Powerful. This agitation continues until the river has passed the barriers and then it returns to be calm, it’s natural state. Throughout its journey to its destination, which will be something larger than itself (a bay, ocean, or lake), the river will meet with many barriers in different forms. It will become agitated, but it will then pass and return to tranquility. But most importantly, the river never ceases to continue on its path of destiny. It is destined to become something grander than it currently is.
It’s the law of the World. Humans are part of nature, part of creation, and we all deal with change in similar ways. We become unsettled and agitated, but nature understands this is part of life and fulfilling our destinies. Rivers do not cease to run, and trees do not cease to grow. They do not fear failure. They adapt and they conform. Fear of failing is usually more significant than the failure itself. But I would much rather live my life as I dream, free and with a sense of high, than to live a life formed by fear and never truly living. Therefore, failing by default.