I came out to meditate and reflect on
the transition I am making right now. The last couple of weeks have been one of
the most transformative moments of my life. When it comes to a position of
financial stability, I had that, but what I was doing was unfulfilling. So, I am
starting all over, and jumping into an industry I am unfamiliar with, leaving
everything I once thought I wanted, and it is all quite unsettling.
Understandably, I have been feeling heavy
in my heart and head, not exactly expressed by anything specifically, but just
a conflict of sorts. At the same time, I am calm and at peace with my decisions,
It’s an interesting blend of energy.
Humans have emotions and these emotions
are powerful. They can prevent us from living out our dreams. And the strongest
emotion is that of FEAR. There is truly only one thing that makes a dream impossible
to achieve: The fear of failure. But going out and meditating by the river
today I watched the river and I learned something.
A river is forever ongoing, its
nature is to run continuously, and without ceasing. The river might face
disturbances in the form of rocks, boulders, or the edges of the land that serve
as guides to keep the river on its path. When the river confronts those barriers,
it becomes tumultuous and unsettled. Powerful. This agitation continues until
the river has passed the barriers and then it returns to be calm, it’s natural
state. Throughout its journey to its destination, which will be something
larger than itself (a bay, ocean, or lake), the river will meet with many
barriers in different forms. It will become agitated, but it will then pass and
return to tranquility. But most importantly, the river never ceases to continue
on its path of destiny. It is destined to become something grander than it
It’s the law of the World. Humans are
part of nature, part of creation, and we all deal with change in similar ways.
We become unsettled and agitated, but nature understands this is part of life
and fulfilling our destinies. Rivers do not cease to run, and trees do not
cease to grow. They do not fear failure. They adapt and they conform. Fear of
failing is usually more significant than the failure itself. But I would much rather
live my life as I dream, free and with a sense of high, than to live a life formed
by fear and never truly living. Therefore, failing by default.